I was speaking with my newly acquired soon to be sister-in-law yesterday and she has suggested I be more diligent with my blogging. I'm not someone who feels affective in my blogging and I don't have a large audience, if any. However, I want to be a published author and have at least a cult like following. Just enough to supplement our income so my husband doesn't feel the money pressure all by himself. I will honestly try this time. Last year I was a bit more successful, but not really.
This I will say. Throughout last year I have been challenged and changed. I'm not who I was at the beginning of last year and even though we are a full 3 months in to this one I'm not the same woman I was on January 1st. So many good things are pulling together to the same purpose for me right now I need to allow myself to be pulled that direction. Finally I feel like I'm moving forward in my life. For the first time in 30 years (yes I'm 30) I know I'm better. I feel better, I act better, shoot I even look better. THANK YOU ZUMBA!
It isn't just doing zumba on a regular basis that has pushed me in the direction I'm going. Although it has helped. In January I was feeling particularly down and during a moment of prayer I cried out for God to change me and keep me from feeling depressed. I hated feeling that way and now after decades of feeling depressed periodically I've started becoming more diligent in what I put into my body and how active/productive I am. The conclusion I've come to is that I was too sedentary. I wasn't allowing myself to function and I sat around feeling sorry for myself, which is REALLY depressing. Then as I was reading 'Farmer Boy' from the 'Little House on the Prairie' books I've noticed things that they did on a daily basis and things his father said to him as he grew up line up with what I've learned lately and light bulbs are turing on all over the house that is my brain. His father is always pointing him the direction of most resistance in order for him to grow into a productive responsible adult. He offers both the harder and easier road and then let's his son choose for himself. The son almost always chooses to work for the greater result instead of the instant pleasure. SO here is the long and the short of it. I'm going to do the hard work in order to gain the greater result. I don't know how, but if it works with me doing zumba and slowly chipping away at the weight I never lost from my pregnancies then it will work with everything else too, right?
My parents taught me this growing up, but I forgot it somewhere along the line because I was too busy getting what I wanted all the time. I'm just happy I was reminded before it was too late to teach it to my children.
Don't Be Silent
Leigha
btw please check out my brother and sister-in-law Emy&Ethan. They are highly talented and fashionable to boot. :)
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